My mind racing in confusion,
so scares to speak a word, 
my mouth starts to move, 
but a word was unheard,
my heart racing so fast, 
love comes to mind, 
tears in my heart, 
that couldn’t begin to speak the pain, 
but every time I see you,
I remember that sweet kiss you put upon my face, 
a love that never begins to fade away, 
cause my heart calls out your name, 
repeating the pain I caused you everyday, 
but my desire is to love you to death do us part, 
but that same question still remains in my heart, 
even though you are gone I cant let you go, 
I have so many things I want you to know, 
I’m not trying to hide myself in tears, 
but I only had a few years, 
I’m sorry I didn’t show you my love, 
but I’m not ready to travel or give up, 
I need you by my side, 
so you again can be mine, 
I want you to grow old along with me, 
the best is yet to be, 
so bless the memories within your heart, 
so please don’t forget about them and tear them apart,
I’m sorry I hurt you ,I know now I was wrong, 
but remember, we all stumble,
everyone of us do wrong, 
so will you give me your hand, 
and help me through this too,
I know your still hurt and I’m sorry for that too, 
maybe one day you’ll realize its true, 
its coming 
coming from my heart to you.

Girl in pink dress 

     Only speaks 

        Now in song

           Everyone knows she is all ready

                         GONE.

When times get tough 
And you want to die 
You sit in your room 
Turn out the lights and cry. 
You can’t hold back, 
Although you want to 
You try not to care 
But the pain haunts you. 
The feeling of temptation 
Is nothing you can write 
The only thing you can do 
Is bare it and fight. 
This feeling feels endless 
It keeps getting stronger 
The thought of it not leaving 
Just makes it stay longer. 
It’s a feeling of hate 
Of death and destruction 
You are crying so hard 
You can’t even function. 
You just want to die 
But you think of your friends 
Your family, your future 
And your stomach now bends. 
Your mind says just do it 
But your heart screams no 
You are so confused 
“I’ll be gone, so?!” 
You don’t want to live 
But you don’t want to die 
The pain keeps on building 
And you just lie there and cry. 
You ask God to help you 
You think he’s not there 
You think that he left you 
That he doesn’t even care. 
You want to call your friend 
But she made you cry 
It’s not all because of her 
That tonight you want to die. 
You call other people 
Who don’t pick up their phone. 
And suddenly you feel 
Like you are all alone. 
“Why is this happening? 
What did I do?! 
Where are you God? 
Man I hate you!!” 
I am a good kid 
I get good grades 
I did nothing wrong 
Yet my life still fades. 
I’m in total darkness 
Stuck in a nightmare 
Confused out of my mind 
Because it’s not fair. 
This feeling of hell 
That’s now in my heart 
Is throwing me down 
And tearing me apart 
It causes much pain 
Sometimes I don’t know why 
But I do know that 
I just want to die. 
I can’t stand it anymore 
It’ll probably be better 
I will just sit in my bedroom 
I’ll write a letter. 
A letter saying sorry 
But I had to go 
I just couldn’t stand “it”: 
This pain you don’t know.

And when he’s gone remember;

you once loved him,

you once needed him,

you once cared about him more than anything in the world

You cannot deny that he was ever there.

You cannot deny what you had.

you cannot deny that it ended over absolutely nothing.

You can’t deny that.

Regardless, you still think about it. No other boy could love you like the way that he did.

When the words escape me
Heaven and hell dance
Echoes play
Night songs

The music crescendos
Helpless
Emotions take place

Wrongs become right
Our love story
Replays in the
Distant
Skies

Every Breath I take
Seems to belong to you
Carry me once more to where
Angels call me by name
Each dream plays

Memories become
Enigmas of days gone by

When words escape me

Questions asked in order
To save my life or will he take it again
The answer no to avoid death is just an other game
The answer yes would make it,
Make it go away the red stained skin could glisten under the moon and form pretty pictures to lead you to the bullet….

Do you believe in God?
was written on the bullet…
I say yes to pull the trigger!
Do you believe in God?
Written on the bullet
And I pulled the trigger to say “I love you “

Heads are bowed in silence, not knowing this is your game
To remember my last sentence, was your 4 walls of pleasure turned to pain
I answered you knowing what would happen
My last words still hanging in the air,
In the air they dance screaming “I love you”

Do you believe in God?
was written on the bullet….
I said yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God?
Written on the bullet
And I pulled the trigger to say “I love you “

How many times must I die?
I will die for you again tonight.
I’ll say yes to pull the trigger..
So you can see,
“I love you “
And I pulled the trigger to say “I love you “

mysearchforwisdom:

She is something
like the someone you know
and the something you don’t show
like the dream you hide
and the lie you love to deny
she is like the sea,
the pull of gravity
and the splashing foam
broken by the tide
she is the story
the energy of light
she is the day,
as it fades to night
she is like everything
she is life…. 

(via interrupted-words)

Little girl with green eyes
cries in the dark
she write letters in chalk on a wall made of glass
wondering if you may walk pass
if her words you will be able to see
for thats all she has left
of her memories…..

Chalk dust clouds her finger tips and tears stain her face
they will never be able to take the place
of the daddy she misses
the one she write for
on a glass wall in her heart
that only sees the space you once filled
all she has left now is memories.

When times get tough
And you want to die
You sit in your room
Turn out the lights and cry.
You can’t hold back,
Although you want to
You try not to care
But the pain haunts you.
The feeling of temptation
Is nothing you can write
The only thing you can do
Is bare it and fight.
This feeling feels endless
It keeps getting stronger
The thought of it not leaving
Just makes it stay longer.
It’s a feeling of hate
Of death and destruction
You are crying so hard
You can’t even function.
You just want to die
But you think of your friends
Your family, your future
And your stomach now bends.
Your mind says just do it
But your heart screams no
You are so confused
“I’ll be gone, so?!”
You don’t want to live
But you don’t want to die
The pain keeps on building
And you just lie there and cry.
You ask God to help you
You think he’s not there
You think that he left you
That he doesn’t even care.
You want to call your friend
But she made you cry
It’s not all because of her
That tonight you want to die.
You call other people
Who don’t pick up their phone.
And suddenly you feel
Like you are all alone.
“Why is this happening?
What did I do?!
Where are you God?
Man I hate you!!”
I am a good kid
I get good grades
I did nothing wrong
Yet my life still fades.
I’m in total darkness
Stuck in a nightmare
Confused out of my mind
Because it’s not fair.
This feeling of hell
That’s now in my heart
Is throwing me down
And tearing me apart
It causes much pain
Sometimes I don’t know why
But I do know that
I just want to die.
I can’t stand it anymore
It’ll probably be better
I will just sit in my bedroom
I’ll write a letter.
A letter saying sorry
But I had to go
I just couldn’t stand “it”:
This pain you don’t know.