I haven’t got a clue if you’re the one
But I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel
I wanna do this right
Don’t wanna waste this night
But I’m drowning
Drowning in your love

Bring me flowers
And talk for hours
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel
Kiss my face
Your warm embrace
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel

I’m a little scared to hold you closer
Cause I just might never ever let you go
Caught up in your smile
I’m happy as a child
But I’m still drowning
Drowning in your love

Bring me flowers
And talk for hours
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel
Kiss my face
Your warm embrace
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel

My mind racing in confusion,
so scares to speak a word, 
my mouth starts to move, 
but a word was unheard,
my heart racing so fast, 
love comes to mind, 
tears in my heart, 
that couldn’t begin to speak the pain, 
but every time I see you,
I remember that sweet kiss you put upon my face, 
a love that never begins to fade away, 
cause my heart calls out your name, 
repeating the pain I caused you everyday, 
but my desire is to love you to death do us part, 
but that same question still remains in my heart, 
even though you are gone I cant let you go, 
I have so many things I want you to know, 
I’m not trying to hide myself in tears, 
but I only had a few years, 
I’m sorry I didn’t show you my love, 
but I’m not ready to travel or give up, 
I need you by my side, 
so you again can be mine, 
I want you to grow old along with me, 
the best is yet to be, 
so bless the memories within your heart, 
so please don’t forget about them and tear them apart,
I’m sorry I hurt you ,I know now I was wrong, 
but remember, we all stumble,
everyone of us do wrong, 
so will you give me your hand, 
and help me through this too,
I know your still hurt and I’m sorry for that too, 
maybe one day you’ll realize its true, 
its coming 
coming from my heart to you.

And when he’s gone remember;

you once loved him,

you once needed him,

you once cared about him more than anything in the world

You cannot deny that he was ever there.

You cannot deny what you had.

you cannot deny that it ended over absolutely nothing.

You can’t deny that.

Regardless, you still think about it. No other boy could love you like the way that he did.

How do I re invent me..

I have this weight that I carry and it is my last piece of you…

How do I let go and realize its okay…

How do I look at the mirror and see me, not the person whom you made…

How do I find me amung the ruble of the broken heart that stands here now…..

Can you love me ?

Answer me this

Not in a day but now

You are all I need

Open your heart to me

Under the moon we can kiss

Love me

over and over again

Velvet kisses if what I miss

Each day from your lips

Make me this promise

                                                Each day…. to love me

I spit words that cut like knifes

They slice at your pale skin

And cause red pools of sorrow to form

I laugh at the tears that fill your eyes

and dare you to let them spill.

I look at you with eyes that will never heal

the pain that lingers

in the corners of your heart

I glare at you with melancholy

And watch you turn away

My touch is soft

but burns like a wild fire on your skin

I leave marks and scars

To tell you I care …

You and I are the same…

For you are me and I am you…

Questions asked in order
To save my life or will he take it again
The answer no to avoid death is just an other game
The answer yes would make it,
Make it go away the red stained skin could glisten under the moon and form pretty pictures to lead you to the bullet….

Do you believe in God?
was written on the bullet…
I say yes to pull the trigger!
Do you believe in God?
Written on the bullet
And I pulled the trigger to say “I love you “

Heads are bowed in silence, not knowing this is your game
To remember my last sentence, was your 4 walls of pleasure turned to pain
I answered you knowing what would happen
My last words still hanging in the air,
In the air they dance screaming “I love you”

Do you believe in God?
was written on the bullet….
I said yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God?
Written on the bullet
And I pulled the trigger to say “I love you “

How many times must I die?
I will die for you again tonight.
I’ll say yes to pull the trigger..
So you can see,
“I love you “
And I pulled the trigger to say “I love you “

When times get tough
And you want to die
You sit in your room
Turn out the lights and cry.
You can’t hold back,
Although you want to
You try not to care
But the pain haunts you.
The feeling of temptation
Is nothing you can write
The only thing you can do
Is bare it and fight.
This feeling feels endless
It keeps getting stronger
The thought of it not leaving
Just makes it stay longer.
It’s a feeling of hate
Of death and destruction
You are crying so hard
You can’t even function.
You just want to die
But you think of your friends
Your family, your future
And your stomach now bends.
Your mind says just do it
But your heart screams no
You are so confused
“I’ll be gone, so?!”
You don’t want to live
But you don’t want to die
The pain keeps on building
And you just lie there and cry.
You ask God to help you
You think he’s not there
You think that he left you
That he doesn’t even care.
You want to call your friend
But she made you cry
It’s not all because of her
That tonight you want to die.
You call other people
Who don’t pick up their phone.
And suddenly you feel
Like you are all alone.
“Why is this happening?
What did I do?!
Where are you God?
Man I hate you!!”
I am a good kid
I get good grades
I did nothing wrong
Yet my life still fades.
I’m in total darkness
Stuck in a nightmare
Confused out of my mind
Because it’s not fair.
This feeling of hell
That’s now in my heart
Is throwing me down
And tearing me apart
It causes much pain
Sometimes I don’t know why
But I do know that
I just want to die.
I can’t stand it anymore
It’ll probably be better
I will just sit in my bedroom
I’ll write a letter.
A letter saying sorry
But I had to go
I just couldn’t stand “it”:
This pain you don’t know.

Waves crash all around me
and still I look to them for an answer,
each one more violent then the last
and each one spilling on the shore line just like the secrets I hold onto.
Pieces fall and scatter across the sand
NO answer is there
I don’t see myself like I thought I would,
I look to the sea and no sign of me ….
Where did I go, when did I become so lost that even I can’t find me?

The birds in the sky no longer call me by name
And the song they sing sounds the same but
the melody haunts me now
Where have I gone?

The foot prints in the sand match mine
But seem to disappear as I walk down their path
They lead to the shore line
And it is here that I once again look to the waves
for the answer I long for
I look and look but No answer
Where did I go, when did I become so lost that even I can’t find me?

Tormented Songs from the heart …

Torment

Owns her soul

Reality escapes

Memories long forgotten

Each

Night she sings a new song

To you

Every word felt

Deep in her soul……

Songs of love

Over and over

Never the same note

Games she plays to heal

Self inflicted wounds,

Formed

Right before her reflection in her

Own

Mirror that tells LIES!

Tears Fall

Hitting the floor

Echoing her pain…..

Hypocrite of her own making

Enigmas she calls by name

All together gone

Rightfully so

To say “I love you still”

subtlebones:

I have bled and 
I have learned

Dark knowledge,
poignant truth —
everything made of
flaw, and dead ends
have justified the
purity in a sin

Wilted gardens,
sleepless eyes

(you are all so beautiful to me)

(Source: smokeinatin, via poeticallyprofound)